Why is leaving so hard?

I write this blog on the eve of my final week at my current school.

Since qualifying in 2013, this little oasis in the heart of Pimlico, has been like a second home. I have come to love the school, get to know the 200 children and develop great friendships with staff. It's been the only school I've had the pleasure of working in. I have been blessed with opportunities to develop as a leader and bring about change to how science is valued. I have the upmost respect for the SLT and have learned so much from their leadership.

So why am I leaving? I have to be honest and say that right now, I don't know. When I began my search for a new job, I was armed with a dream 'wish list', and the attitude that it'd be hard to find. I was adamant that it would have to be close to my dream job for me to leave such a great school. And so, here I am. I found the job I really wanted. In 3 weeks time, I'll be Year group leader and Lower KS2 science leader of a junior school. Wow. I'm incredibly excited about this new challenge.

However, it's been these final weeks that have made me really value what I'm about to leave. It has possibly been the hardest decision of my career. This little oasis really is special and is unlike any other school I've seen in London.

Sadly though, my drive and ambition has outgrown the school, as a professional, I'm eager to improve not just my own practice, but have a positive impact on a wider school community. I also know that I can't stay in the same school forever. I don't like to stand still.

This move was inevitable, however, I hadn't anticipated just how hard I'd find leaving a job and school I love; taking that leap.

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With all that said and done, I know I'm doing the right thing. I would rather leave still enjoying where I work than get to that bitter point where I don't want to come into school. That's never fun. 

Leaving will be hard, the fear of the unknown is creeping up on me and the safety of what I know is urging me to stay. I feel like I'm jumping off a cliff into the unknown. Reality tells me that everything will work out, my clear excitement and passion for this job, and science education will see me through.l and I will succeed.I know I'm equipped for this new challenge, simply from the amount of research I've already done and the new ideas I'm eager to implement.

Change is needed, change is good.